A step toward has never been seen easy for a lonely man like me just to take since August 2008. That is because my first time-pregnant lady left me alone with such hard breath and this empty bed where to kiss and hold her tight in my warm arms through nights and days. I just knew I am alive because of her, all she did for me and her soft words.
One worst night was on August 16 2008 at 2:16 am, my four month-loveliest pregnant lady who was held tight right by my side went to a bad coma which was caused by her heart disease and left me this emptiest world, all places, parks and footpaths I used to take my walks behind her, just after she was brought and got to the hospital. While along the road going to hospital I cradled my lady’s head with each drop of my falling tears, wished and prayed she would certainly wake up and ever gave me back her sweet smile as usual. Unfortunately, a misfortune immediately rose up just after about 5 minutes in the hospital emergency room at 2:49am.
Once I knew my loveliest lady had gone with a hidden loss (my first expected most handsome/beautiful child) who had never been appeared. I felt dropping myself into the darkest world and started my crying sound which I wished to stop the death of my beloved lady. My thoughts were to hold the lifetime of her in my hands, and I would not ever let her go anywhere else. But all I could do was to cry and hold my dead lady’s body tightly, called her on her ears if she could hear me, please and please listened to me.
About 20 minutes spent in hospital after my love’s death and she was brought back home for her funeral folkway. All things at home were too different to me and I did not know how my life would certainly move on without my warm lady. All seemed too empty when I looked around my house, bed room, kitchen, and places she used to stand.
During her funeral I extremely needed to cry loudest so people around would know how much my broken heart was, but I couldn’t and I was soundless due to my all time crying through nights and days, no one could ever stopped me crying because of my broken heart. All soft hearted-people always cried with whenever they saw me crying.
Until the time after my lady’s burial now, I never want to do anything because the beautiful face and warm words I used to see and hear firstly whenever I woke up, are attached so tight than I can erase out of my mind. I have been expecting not to get married any more. Usually many of my friends, family members, and all relatives ask me uncountable questions but I just can find no right answers to respond them, most my answers are “No”.
Yes, it has been 6 years now I have been waiting her back home to fill all emptiest places but I have been waiting for nothings, say people around. Actually they are right but that is not what I want to hear and take to my consideration of my second marriage because I don’t really want to experience with this any more. As my heart attacked this time, is enough for me to bear with the sadness and loneliness. Until now I really know my lady won’t ever come back to me, but my heart keep things like she were right by my side with a hot pink umbrella shading me, spoke to me and made me a cool cup of coffee when I am hot, and a hot cup of coffee when I am cold.
If I knew she were alive and still in anywhere in this living world I would sacrifice everything to be left behind and trace my lady to bring her back. But I know the heaven she is in now never includes my name, and allows me to be there. She would not know and call my name if she saw me in the heaven. Any way my lady, would you know I exactly miss you and love you whatever you have been. I love you….love you….and love you.
This story of my life named “The emptiest memorial places” is coming to an end here, with lots of special thanks for all of my audiences those expect and try to practice the patience reading/going through my life story. Mostly I would like to express my sincere thanks for http://www.3haivhmoob.com/ to give us such great opportunity to post our things to say here.
The story is longer but I just pick up some points to tell. Especially who have no much time sitting on the screen can read and be recognized what my life is, through this short story.
One worst night was on August 16 2008 at 2:16 am, my four month-loveliest pregnant lady who was held tight right by my side went to a bad coma which was caused by her heart disease and left me this emptiest world, all places, parks and footpaths I used to take my walks behind her, just after she was brought and got to the hospital. While along the road going to hospital I cradled my lady’s head with each drop of my falling tears, wished and prayed she would certainly wake up and ever gave me back her sweet smile as usual. Unfortunately, a misfortune immediately rose up just after about 5 minutes in the hospital emergency room at 2:49am.
Once I knew my loveliest lady had gone with a hidden loss (my first expected most handsome/beautiful child) who had never been appeared. I felt dropping myself into the darkest world and started my crying sound which I wished to stop the death of my beloved lady. My thoughts were to hold the lifetime of her in my hands, and I would not ever let her go anywhere else. But all I could do was to cry and hold my dead lady’s body tightly, called her on her ears if she could hear me, please and please listened to me.
About 20 minutes spent in hospital after my love’s death and she was brought back home for her funeral folkway. All things at home were too different to me and I did not know how my life would certainly move on without my warm lady. All seemed too empty when I looked around my house, bed room, kitchen, and places she used to stand.
During her funeral I extremely needed to cry loudest so people around would know how much my broken heart was, but I couldn’t and I was soundless due to my all time crying through nights and days, no one could ever stopped me crying because of my broken heart. All soft hearted-people always cried with whenever they saw me crying.
Until the time after my lady’s burial now, I never want to do anything because the beautiful face and warm words I used to see and hear firstly whenever I woke up, are attached so tight than I can erase out of my mind. I have been expecting not to get married any more. Usually many of my friends, family members, and all relatives ask me uncountable questions but I just can find no right answers to respond them, most my answers are “No”.
Yes, it has been 6 years now I have been waiting her back home to fill all emptiest places but I have been waiting for nothings, say people around. Actually they are right but that is not what I want to hear and take to my consideration of my second marriage because I don’t really want to experience with this any more. As my heart attacked this time, is enough for me to bear with the sadness and loneliness. Until now I really know my lady won’t ever come back to me, but my heart keep things like she were right by my side with a hot pink umbrella shading me, spoke to me and made me a cool cup of coffee when I am hot, and a hot cup of coffee when I am cold.
If I knew she were alive and still in anywhere in this living world I would sacrifice everything to be left behind and trace my lady to bring her back. But I know the heaven she is in now never includes my name, and allows me to be there. She would not know and call my name if she saw me in the heaven. Any way my lady, would you know I exactly miss you and love you whatever you have been. I love you….love you….and love you.
This story of my life named “The emptiest memorial places” is coming to an end here, with lots of special thanks for all of my audiences those expect and try to practice the patience reading/going through my life story. Mostly I would like to express my sincere thanks for http://www.3haivhmoob.com/ to give us such great opportunity to post our things to say here.
The story is longer but I just pick up some points to tell. Especially who have no much time sitting on the screen can read and be recognized what my life is, through this short story.
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